A while ago I became aware of an issue that I need to work through. I may have mentioned it before in another post. I kind of ignored it for a while as I took a break from just about everything in life to focus on exams. It was a great excuse to avoid that which I didn't want to deal with. Well now I have week until my last exam so I have a little bit of time.
(Not much time though, since I am going to get tooled on this exam and need to study every little bit that I can. I studied for 30-ish hours for the midterm and got a blessed 62%. But my getting lit up in my graduating year is a story for another day.)
The issue is mercy. I think I got the justice part down, well maybe not quite, but more so than mercy. Part of me would like to beat the the disgusting pigs who rape these little girls into a pulp so fine not even their DNA is intact. Now I don't think I could actually hurt anyone since I am the type of person who picks up a spider and takes it back outside. But you know what I mean, this really pisses me off!
But I wasn't saved to condemn others, although that would be a lot easier. It is hard to believe, but God loves these agents of violence and corruption. I wonder how He could. I mean, of course He loves me, what's not to love? (don't answer) How can a Father love someone who is destroying one of his precious children. I just don't understand.
And what is the right reaction? I know what is not the right reaction, beating to a pulp. How does justice and mercy go together? Surely these men must still be punished, they have to suffer some consequence, jail or something? They can't just get away with this.
I am scared to approach God. I don't know if I want the answer, I already know I probably won't like it. And once He tells me I'll have to buy into it. What scares me even more is, what if this turns out to be my Nineveh? Good luck finding a whale to swallow me whole in the middle of Saskatchewan.
This has growing pains written all over it. It will probably be about as pleasant as waxing your armpits.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
I'm ready... I think
at 8:59 PM
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don't know if this will make sense, or help really, but do with it what you will. when i counsel young couples as to why they are marrying one another, they tell me that they love each other, and they feel as though their love goes beyond emotional feeling to the extent of committing to one another regardless of what happens.
love is something more than a feeling, at least "true" love is. we say that true love is being utterly committed to another person no matter the circumstances. God is perfect love, and perfectly committed to His creation, most notably to us. He may not approve of what we do, however, He is utterly committed to us and to making us into what He has designed us to be.
just some thoughts.
the actual waxing process isn't the truely terrible part. it's the regrowth period that is killer!
i will call you, maybe today. love ya.
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