THAT WAS UNEXPECTED

A couple of weeks I was trying figure out how all this new information God was giving me was going to turn into action. I was looking into different possibilities of schools and training programs, counseling, nursing, agriculture, economics, international studies, something that would be of some use in the type of missions work (I thought) God was leading me into. Microbiology, at least my degree, hasn't really equipped me, unless there is a need for DNA transformation and recombination using plasmid vectors.

I was online checking out sites and doing some emailing, and I decided that for some reason I should check my University of Alberta account. I set this thing up only because I had to when I applied to medicine, that is the only way they will correspond with you. I almost never check it, between yahoo, facebook and my U of S account, it just never crosses my mind.

Well when I opened my email I was surprised to find an email from the Faculty of Medicine saying that I had an interview, and that I needed to send my reply with a very specific size photograph right away. If I had checked just a day or two later I probably would have missed it.
I guess this was good news, but kind of at a bad time. I was really frustrated with school, and still am. I am not sure if I want to do 4 more years of it, it's already been 5. I don't know if medicine is still my dream. It used to be, I remember when I got my first white lab coat, and thinking how cool it would be to wear the real doctor version. I used to dream about the day when I would get the letter in the mail and open it and read, "You have been accepted into the Faculty of Medicine." Those things are still good, but I just don't have the same passion for it that I used to.

I guess you can say that I have given my heart to another, to the girls trapped in a life of the worst kind of slavery I can imagine. I thought that was where God was leading me, now this interview doesn't make sense. It doesn't fit with everything that God has been leading me through. But there is now way that I would have gotten an interview without God being intentional about it. There had been a couple of problems with my application which, as they state on the form, will result in rejection of the application with no contact to the applicant.

What are you doing God? I thought we were going to Cambodia. But then you did this. Now what? I so desperately want to save those girls, but the vision You has given me requires not just an everyday leap of faith, but an Evil Knievel motorcycle jump over a canyon type of leap. I have wanted to be a doctor for so long, and the culture "around pre-med" makes the idea of turning it down beyond absurd, but I don't know if I am willing/capable of going through four more years like this.

I have not been accepted yet, I just have an interview. So I guess I don't need to make a decision yet. I am okay with whatever, but I want to be sure before I jump into anything, whether it be Cambodia or med school.